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How to Save a Life is dead on.
...written on 2006-10-18, at 7:32 p.m.
I don't think things will ever be the same between Josh and I. He's treating me like nothing happened. When I asked him why he said "because you gave me the space I needed and now I wanna be friends again".
I wanted to punch him in the face or flip him off.
I was so over this...
But now he wants to be buddy buddy again.
I don't want to deal with it. I preferred when I recieved no special treatment at all.
He fucking comes up to me now and tells me he loves me. He pulls me close while I remain a board. He jokes with me, tells me I'm beautiful and should smile.
I hold back vomit because all he being this close to me does is remind me of why we were so far apart.
I'm bothered.
I'm so fucking bothered by him and by this.
I just want to feel okay with the situation.