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Sarah. Nineteen. In College. Clarion Univ. PA. Boyfriend. In Love. Hottness. Clever. Witty. Trouble. Good Time.
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"In your local forcast..."
...written on 2006-06-02, at 10:57 p.m.
I miss him. He's gone now for a whole month at least and all I want is to be with him. I miss his touch and the way he looks at me. It's almost too much to bear.
I feel like an idiot for flirting with other guys, for entertaining the idea that I might not need Richard. I need to have a constant reminder of what I could have. I get sick thinking about the idea of not having him. I don't think there's another man in the world who would fit with me like he does.
This last week has shown me that. There are so many subtle things he does that I can't imagine living without. Tonight, about an hour before he was leaving we were laying in my bed and watching an episode of 24. I was laying closer to the wall and he was laying on the outside of the bed. I was uncomfortable the whole time but I figured I'd be nice and let him have the outside, he might want it because you can do more and are less blocked in.
Really after about twenty minutes of being on the inside I got so uncomfortable I needed to be on the outside so we switched. I looked back at him, while we were spooning and told him I was sorry, I prefered the front and I thanked him for letting me have it. He then told me he prefered the back and we were both happy.
After a second I said that I was happy we liked opposite things and he said he was happy we liked complimentary things.
Tonight, after he left I started thinking about all of the ways we compliment each other. We each see the world in such a different light and if I open up enough to him we can share those lights.
I can't wait until he comes back. I can't wait to talk to him tonight. I hold so much passion inside of me, for him. It's time I start letting it out better.
In other news, today was the last day of school for the local students so it's officially summer. I don't know how things will be now. We'll see.
I know that I'm happy Sam will be home in the morning now to, hopefully, share some of the responsibility. She's very selfish though, she only really looks out for herself so there's no telling how that will go.
I know this is repetetive but I miss Richard. I'm becoming stressed thinking about all of my family problems and at least while he was here I could collapse into his arms, which I can't do right now. I know he'd be eager to listen to my rants and ravings though so at least I have someone to talk to.
Sarah