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Sarah. Nineteen. In College. Clarion Univ. PA. Boyfriend. In Love. Hottness. Clever. Witty. Trouble. Good Time.
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School makes me faint while guys whisper love into my ear.
...written on 2006-08-13, at 2:33 p.m.
Im getting ready to move back into college. I'm getting pretty excited about it too. I love Clarion and all of my friends there... going back is going to be awesome.
I move in on tuesday. My grandma Betty will be coming down with her car and my grandma Elaine will be coming the whole way from North Carolina to help me move in and visit some. She should be here today.
I dont know how I feel about her coming up. It always kind of fills me with a bad sort of anxiety. When I was younger I can remember her coming up and having a good time with her but there was always this tension, and I remember that every time she'd come up, someone would be in tears, and never the good kind.
My mother and her mother, my grandma Elaine, don't have a good relationship. There was a lot of abuse from what I've been told and it's just hard for my mom to be around her without having that "hold me" complex. It's weird. So often times one of them were very upset when the other left because something terrible happened which was often helped by my Aunt Michelle who seems to make drama where ever she is.
I just hope that this visit is a good one. Luckily I wont be here for the ending drama. I'll be in school with my loves partaking in RA training and maybe humping Matt Wass or Josh on the side.
Richard and I are doing well. We're still only friends but we're partaking in the benefits of us being together. Saying "I love you", calling eachother before bed and occassionally during the day. We still have eachothers company but I don't feel tied down while waiting for him to make an effort to make things better.
He has a car now though, which is crazy and kind of sexy. Haha. I like guys who are able to make something out of their lives. It was the same when he got promoted to superviser at UPS. It just makes me hot to see a successful guy.
I'm not sure if Im going to be dating around. I think I'll keep my options open but chances are I wont be dating anyone once I get back to college. You really never know where things could go though so Im not making any promises.
Ive been talking to a lot of guys from my past lately. Most of them are guys who I met online when I was like, 15 years old and we've been talking since. Lately I've also been hearing a lot of "I dont know what it is about you that makes me keep coming back... You're just amazing" and "There's just 'something' about you. You're so different. There's no one like you." in that swoony voice. Yeah. If I were more naive I would have fallen for it. But luckily I know better than to get all swoony with them and instead I say "thank you" and "there's only one of me" or something similar to make it less serious.
It's craziness though and I dont think I want to deal with it, haha. Which is exactly why Im not. Im not getting into a relationship right now, unless of course they were someone who just took my breath away, and the only guy I know now who could potentially do that is Richard.
Sarah