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Ignorant young suitor. The last thing I needed was a triangle.
...written on 2006-06-11, at 12:03 a.m.
Today I was bored and I was feeling lonely. Richard had a lot of work to do on his project and so I told him that I was going to go online and find someone to chat with... this often times leads to our problems because he becomes jealous when I spend a lot of time talking to someone else.
Well, I told him that 11 hours ago and he hasn't called me since, not because he's mad at me but beacuse he's been busy or distracted and he doesn't think to call me.
After we talked I did exactly what I told him I'd do. It's not often that I go into chat and normally when I do nothing comes of it. A few mildly interesting conversations but that's about it. That's basically how it was going today until someone came in the room and said that there was no one in there.
At the time I was talking to five or six different guys and a few more pm's were popping up so I replied to him that if you were a female the room was much more interesting. And from their we started talking.
It was very casual and it cam easily. He was articulate and used full sentences, haha. Punctuation and everything. He had whole thoughts and elaborated without me having to ask. It was like a real conversation and it was a really good one.
We continued to talk and it turns out we have many things in common. We both love romantic, simple gestures. We both enjoy nature and helping people. We also both enjoy theatre. He's a quoter too, haha. He quoted The Phantom of the Opera. The quote was "Ignorant ford, this brave young suitor. Come to me angel of music."
It was so appropriate and I adored it.
I really started to become infatuated with him and it bothered me a lot. We have a lot in common and I clicked with him very well and it felt like I'd known him for a very long time. I wanted to continue talking to him tonight. He'd given me his number and told me he could call me any time I wanted, because now, we were friends. Though if we weren't he insisted that we'd already be dating. I was tempted to call him, and then something hit me and I was disinterested.
I really believe that Richard and I could be forever. I know we could be. I think we still will be together forever. So now I'm going to continue to talk to Trevor, that's his name, and be friends with him. Because, honestly, at minimal it would be really nice to have a friend like him.
I'm afraid of telling Richard though because I don't want him to get terribly jealous and decide that I need to stop talking to Trevor. It doesn't work that way. I hate when he does that. It doesn't work with me. Ultimatums don't either.
I love him. I want him to know that above all else, so I have to tell him. Tonight. And if for some reason I can't tonight then tomorrow at the lastest.
Please don't let him be too jealous.
Sarah.